Man Cry ...

I came off the methadone over a year ago now. I can smell things. I can taste things. I have clarity. And I feel. Boy, I feel. I'm a thirty-eight year old man and my life is just beginning.

I've done a lot of talking in the past year so I don't carry the guilt and shame any longer. I'm making good clean, pro-social friends. I'm learning to be a counsellor now. And auditioning. I got me an agent. I was down to the final two for a family violence commercial but I didn't get it. I had a day on 'Shortland Street': "Dr Gary Watkins". Be nice if that would open up, but I won't hold my breath. It'll happen eventually; I'll get some work. And with two passions in my life, I'll stay clean too.